lost & i hope it can be found

a friend i thought that she is my best friend eventhough our contact is so least...
a friend was my best best best sister i was regarded....
a friend i been proud to tell everyone i know her since i was a child....
a friend i treated as my life best sis....
things changes over time...
same as people...
nobody can be blame but myself....
i'm the one who destroyed our friendship...
i'm the one who deserved to lost a best sis....

妥协

你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍才发现 是你的心太远
你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天

this song is totally decribes the relationship between u and me...
hope that you will understand y i'm keep rejecting your proposed after read this....
i'm enjoying being single and dun want to repeat the same mistake i done.....
hope that you really can treat me as your good friend.....
as i do treat you so....

when you are gone

finally..today..
you are leaving.....
really hate this kinda of feeling...
hate seperation....
think last time was my best sis depart to sabah...
tears drop when saw her check in ...
its been quite a long time didnt going back at 7pm...
today.....
walking back home alone....
felt lonely..
found that i'm so selfish..
you were being alone all the time ....
tears dropping...
becoz too miss you...
miss your laugh, miss your grumble...
miss the time hanging out with you...
NTUC, MOS, Vivo, Tiong Bahru, Bugis, KTV, Queensway, Annchorpoint, Jurong Point.....
miss the time preparing breakfast with you..
miss the time cooking lunch with you...
miss the time suft net together with you...
miss the time having breakfast, lunch, dinner with you...
miss the time drinking and spreadout things on one's mind....
miss the time sharing happiness and sadness together...
miss the time together with you....
thanks for taking care of me all the while...
thanks for forgiving my hot temper...
million of thanks....
my dearest and best frenz.....
7 7 7 ...
all the best to you...
our friendship will remain unchange and last forever....

use to it = horrible

it is very horrible when you are getting use to it..
either things or people...
i hate this kind of feeling...
when i lost my hp which i used it around 1 year...
i'm feeling sorrow and frustrated...
eventhough i'm having a new one now..
i'm still missing it a lot although it have been lost for one month...
same as people...
i admit that i'm not really like you when i just know you...
without any understanding and misunderstanding...
after knowing and getting well with you..
i'm use to the life that you are around...
and now..
one year later..
you are going to leave and having a better future then..
i'm really can't bear for your leaving...
dun dare to imagine that i need to be alone from now onwards...
dun dare to imagine that i will be alone from now onwards...

Bye Bye
This is for my people's who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high, we will never say bye
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my people's who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me alive
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying, "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown full things separation brings
You never let me know it, you never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
I wish I could talk to you for awhile
I wish I could find a way try not to cry
As time goes by
And soon as you reached a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm bragging next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye byeBye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong that you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

helpless

No ending CAPA really makes me tired..
i got no idea to settle all these issues...
i got no idea to fill-in corrective action and preventive action...
really dunno how to do...
feel helpless...
when only i can escape from this hell ?

Team Building at Pulau Ubin 19Feb2009

Finally get chance to upload teambuilding's photo..a very nice day to pulau Ubin and Terminal 3.Thanks Quen Fong,my engineer.Coz bringing us to a super nice place....i did enjoy much much this day and temporary let off all my presure.

desperate

never felt that i'm useless like this before...
i'm really try my best to keep my job done well...
i try my best to finish those mountain of jobs on time..
even stay back never claim OT, even bring it back to home to finish..
i don't expect people will be grateful for my effort..
but can please don't just like waiting for watching a fantastic show?
i'm really hate all these human being-jealous , mouth fully operate but hands do nothing...
just know to bully people,just know to gossip...
please lah, please put your time on those things you should concern...
no ending issues...
no ending bad luck...
felt deseprate....
really tired...
i miss u, my dear crazy gang...
i miss u, my dear campus life....