msg of sorry

i'm really sorry for not turning up the date..
and finally i decided to give up our friendship as i dont think the feeling towards u will be same as before..
the distance i keep will not be shorten, today or even in future....
the 1st time i feel that so scary and trembling for an hour...
the only word i can said is sorry..
and to my gang..sorry to run away from u guys so...

到底怎么了

是时候该调整自己的心态了...
一直以为自己很本事的...
一直以来引以为傲的自尊...
一直以来培养的独立...
一直以来惯有的乐观...
全都渐渐的好像不属于我....
好像好想以前的自己...
那么的快乐...
虽然不是顶级的女强人...
但真的觉得自己蛮有本事的...
可是为什么渐渐的不这么觉得呢？
我搞不懂 我到底怎么了...
第一次那么的不想去上班....
曾经...就算病到很严重还是很喜欢工作的我...
曾经....就算要做又要碎碎念...
还是很enjoy....
现在，觉得很对不起大家...
尤其是老爸， 真的很对不起他...
他对我还不错的...
就算很没有礼貌也不跟我计较...
我让你老人家失望了吧..
曾经对我期望很高的....
我...不想的....
不知道为什么觉得自己很没用..
什么都做不好....
为什么就不能放多一点心去做....
恨自己的无能...
要几时才能调试好心情....
这阵子，真的对不起大家....

fenny = free

自从升级后，脸上的笑容渐渐淡了，笑声渐渐少了...
来到Tij3...难道是小fe想的吗？还不是你派小fe去的...
他们的工作量少， 难道就代表小fe很有空？就算一个人扛下很多的小部门， 只要是小部门的成员不太忙，小fe就等于有空...那既然小fe那么有空， 为何还要聘请小fe？ 反正小fe就是闲杂人等....
你吩咐的事小fe从来没拒绝过，就算带着很不爽附加为什么又是我的心情，小fe还是尽力完成....
别人要求帮忙的事， 只要手头上的可以等，就会先去帮忙他们...务必要声明小fe是带着很愉悦开朗的心情去帮他们.....
尤其最近老鼠部新来的工程师倾城..他可不是普通的麻烦加啰嗦啊....原本以为啰嗦王冠军非由小波称霸不可，但小波，小fe必须慎重的宣布，你....输了!!!! 好比接收一个任务是由傍晚7点收到9点...这可是小fe人生中的第一次.....倾城差点没把祖宗十八代翻出来.... 小fe还是在半梦半醒间苦苦哀求倾城饶她一马....麻烦程度更可媲美老谢....就好比把黑白芝麻分隔成两碗，还要精算quantity.....
突如其来的倾城时不时就搞到小fe要默默的忙到9点.....就因为堆积如山的工作....
小fe要默默承担一切工作，老爸当然都不知道....
在他眼里，小fe相等于有空，闲人....
每次会议必定提起的名句，Tij3 low volume, fenny is free....
那既然小fe那么有空，您老人家又何必含辛茹苦，处处聘请新的technician咧？
既然小fe那么有空，当初何必升她职，反正她在你眼里相等于闲人....
今天惹得小fe痛彻心肺的莫过于那一句理所当然...
话说在8月20日进行的cycle count, 小fe可是率先交报告的先锋....原本感到沾沾自喜的小fe得到的不是赞赏，而是理所当然最先完成因为Tij3....难道小fe就只负责Tij3吗？猫部写部的是鬼做的？ 难道这三个部门加起来还少过2X，2.5 ，4X， 墨包？？？？？？？
为什么在要求小fe做事时必须附加你很有空？？？难道阿金会比小fe忙？？虽然说阿金贵为安全部长，要面对奥迪特, 可是奥迪特又没有每天来报到....也可以理解贵为老人院院长的阿金要照顾老人家很辛苦， 但相比起来， 小fe绝对不是最有空的哪一位， 为什么老爸就是不愿意放过她呢？？？
今天小fe气得要递辞职信了...
想到昂贵的学费， 还有小嘎的赡养费......就算小fe愿意饿肚子吧， 小嘎可饿不得啊，他闹起别扭来， 小fe会很无奈， 当年轻妈妈还是不简单地.....就因为几个小小的困扰， 小fe很没种的放下这伟大的念头....
只能怨自己上辈子邪账积太多吧......

HP cross country race2009

first time joining HP cross country run..
proud to finish the journey...
convo week to off for study this week...
was plan to hanging around this week d..
fren going team building and putting plane again...haiz
then i felt that i'm so lonely to stay in sg..
boring weekend .....lol

brainless sweet potato

think fate to hate potato forever..
shit brainless sweet potato fitnah me...
really disgusting when type out the sweet...
should these words came out from a first line manager??
xxx is ur sups or yyy is ur sups?
super super angry ....
without any investigation...
not even giving me a chance for the explanation...shit
u r the one who didnt read the update CAREFULLY
although this update was happen few weeks ago
u r the one who choose to absent the meeting
although invitation has already indicated u as REQUIRED to attend
who should blame?
still dare to blame me ! SHIT
wait..i will pay u back in triple

ps: thanks guys who try to cheer me up

meanless

what use to contribute so much?
meanless..
speechless....

happy birthday

2 more weeks..who was my suami botak...
tmr...ur birthday...
the 3rd year after we broke up....
happy 22 birthday..all the best..
灰色阴天 陪伴著想念 轻敲回忆的门 要眼泪听见
双手捂住了耳朵 我不准记惦 我用力的呼吸 却泛红了眼
雨滴下了 模糊眼前视线努力隐藏的痛 反而越明显
我们曾扣著指尖 承诺彼此的明天当 你放开了手 遗忘在昨天
我还记得你温柔的双眼第一句我爱你多么的甜
幸福的瞬间 我们都曾相信会是永远
你决定转身离开的那天 曾属於我们的约定 化成了碎片
那幸福的瞬间 多么不舍得也要说再见
那幸福的瞬间 忽然被划上了句点
相信 等待奇迹就会出现相信 不放弃会到终点
可是我们之间 已分隔两道爱的平行线幸福
原来也有一个期限逾期 感觉会慢慢沉淀消失一点一点 只剩昨天

congrat to you, i just shock that my heart is so pain

你走了太久一定很累
他错了不该你来面对
离开他就好 就算了 心情很干脆
他其实没有那么绝对
远一点你就看出真伪
离开他不等于你的世界会崩溃
转个弯你还能飞
就别再为他流泪
别再让他操控你的伤悲
就算有一点愚昧一点点后悔
也不要太狼狈
他不值得你的泪
把那遗憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以后为自己醉以后管他是谁
每段感情都非常珍贵
他的好你就放在心扉
记得有个人曾让你那样的心醉
你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什么梦都不比你的美
多少年以后想起他还有些体会
那些你已无所谓

我沉迷的感动与你不同 我的了解让我自由

i love bangkok

just came back from bangkok..
haiz..i'm really love that place...
a good place to shop and relax...
can't bear to come back each time going there..
as i gt a super handsome d husband there..hahaha
and this time trip..
more frenz added..
MrEgg,night manager,taxi and tuktuk driver and tomyum uncle...
see you guys next year..

**p/s: more photo??kindly refer to my facebook photo album....

too lazy to upload all....

29June09-The Jim Thompson House30June09-The Emerald Buddha Temple and The Grand Palace30June09-The Wat Phyo temple my beloved breakfast-croissant and new favourite-pan cakemy overweight d luggage 1my overweight d luggage 2my overweight d luggage 3Thailand MCDonald uniform

past a month

i'm almost forget this blog page..

as i'm wallowing in RC and happy farm...

quick update for the past month...

1st sem is officially ended...

did not done well in the 1st sem... :(

2nd sem is started..

i really don't like the umum courses in U.. +_+

what a shit subject..

torturing indeed..

what a shit assignment topic i get...

again i felt the discrimination...

i'm not longer the lecturer favourite...

should i be sad??

anyway..i just hope that can do well in the exam...

although this sem is torturing and boring..

i'm still grateful that can hanging out with my dear sis every weekend...

will upload the photo then....hehe..

if time is enough for me..

as we all know..

economic crisis is still continuing...

H1N1 cases is still increasing...

dunno why wanna brief that...:P

my dear colleague is going for a long holiday..

so me and shiny is taking over her job...

busy until worn out..

a lot of things to learn..

currently..i'm looking forward for the bangkok trip...

it's been 1 year i've been going there...

almost forget where should shop..

think should do refresher before going there..haha

3 of my best sis is re lian zhong....

congrat and all the best to you guys...

i'm really happy for you all...

jia you jia you....

for the rest ...no worry for that..

you will meet your soulmate then..

if not..my gupowu's door will always open for you....

super happy d lor

story continue from worn out....
group assignment which i did until worn out ...
after re-do and re-do...
finally i get my rewards and doesn't waste my effort...
the last meeting of technology management...
asking presentation for group assignment...
need to repeat again...
a group assignment which i done alone...
which i done until worn out...
the comment i get is :
" can see this is an original coursework, I'm really appreciate your credit...i cant tell u your mark now, but i can said it is very close to full mark....it is still not perfect but excellent....you just less the topic of MOT...you can choose to add one more topic into your video then i will give you full mark .."
wahaha...I'm damn so happy...
i will add this into my video...
thanks a lot for Mr Razib appreciation...
it's really help me a lot...
as i absent for my replacement test...
as i lost 20 marks for that..
i do really grateful upon your appreciation...
Thanks a lot...
will upload the video then...

congratulation

congratulation to my dear sis..
you know who you are...
i wont mention here as you said that is a secret ....
finally 有情人终成眷属...
i 勉强let u stay my 孤婆屋 for 1 day....
haha...

i'm really happy for you lah....
if daidai never tell me this...
will i be the last person to know this??
i'm angry about this hor...
you better know what to do next time....

no ending bad luck

3 Apr 2009 (Friday) Rain
its a super hot afternoon...
after lunch (cup noodles)...shiny asking to go to NTUC...
we plan to eat ice cream...
so after help Tan & Phing bought tart at bakery beside 7-11....
we did our plan so...
after bought my desire Kit Kat ice cream which cost SGD2.40...
i open the packaging carefully...
beside that..i need to be more careful for Tan cheese tart....
2 seconds later...
only leftover pakaging on my hand...
KitKat ice cream is lie on the floor...
sad.....then bought again KitKat Ice-cream with SGD2.40...
conclusion: i use SGD4.80 to eat an KitKat ice cream
SGD4.80 = 1 scope of ben& jerry / 1 scope of Baskin Robin in msia /4 scope kitkat ice cream in msia

5Apr2009(Sunday) Rain
went to UTM library although got no class today to search past year exam paper...
was taught by librian about how to search exam paper in database and told by her also only can access database using internet explorer...
saw whole row of pc are free for use inside library...
happy....when sit down and check...
whole row d pc using mozila firefox....
forced to use own laptop as land cable attached ....
done set up all, no connection......
finding : no land port for that row of pc......
search in whole library
empty ports are provided for the rest of the row....
ask media guys for borrowing land cable....
" all land cable finish borrowing liao..."
went outside library , try to use wi-fi to on9........
connection is connected to local only...
pack things and preparing to go to Jusco Starbucks...
super heavy rain.....
1- 2 hours later.......
went to Jusco starbucks...
set up again for all things , bought a coffee...
network connected...
but cant go to any of the web....
fix for a hour...
pack things going back home...
4.40pm reach home...
get my own land cable and went to UTM again..
5.15 reach UTM , library closed...
try to use land port outside library...
again....cant connect to network again....
desperate.....
went to fei hostel and was told by her
"UTM d network will Ki Siao after heavy rain...will only recover after 2/3 days..."
!#%$^%&*@
Conclusion : busy for nothing wholeday

6Apr2009(Monday) Rain
8.00am reach lab
try to access UTM intranet using VPN
"VPN is under maintanence"

~SHIT~~~~~~~~~~~~
thats the conclusion for this post

worn out

it's already 12.58am....
still haven sleep yet...
rushing Managament of Technology group assignment...
it's damn so difficult to find material.......
as the rest of my group member dunno how to make a video.....
i'm forced to do it myself...
or i can said that i bao ka liao(Hokien-i do it all)
is it an individual assignment ?
instead of saying this is a group assignment
seaching material..sorry to repeat again..
its super sangat extremely ultra difficult to search...
as i really not an expert in this...
who knows mobile innovation very well..
please guide lao niang.....
i'm totally worn out for this.....

p/s: looking forward for ktv buffet session with shiny & see yun on this coming saturday......
hooray

Happy Birthday,Dear Cindy...
3April09 1.08am

lost & i hope it can be found

a friend i thought that she is my best friend eventhough our contact is so least...
a friend was my best best best sister i was regarded....
a friend i been proud to tell everyone i know her since i was a child....
a friend i treated as my life best sis....
things changes over time...
same as people...
nobody can be blame but myself....
i'm the one who destroyed our friendship...
i'm the one who deserved to lost a best sis....

妥协

你总爱编织谎言 我负责配合表演
所有改变 只为了进入你的世界
这情节 重复了一百遍才发现 是你的心太远
你划定楚河汉界 我不能轻易犯规
所有时间 都是先给了你优先权
不自觉 爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才看见我有多狼狈
爱到妥协 到头来还是误解
抱着你 不让你飞
历史不断重演 我好累
爱到妥协 也无法将故事再重现
你也想退后一点 我躲在我的世界
你只是害怕一个人睡
我不想再为你掉泪
我了解 不会再仍在徘徊
开始自己的明天

this song is totally decribes the relationship between u and me...
hope that you will understand y i'm keep rejecting your proposed after read this....
i'm enjoying being single and dun want to repeat the same mistake i done.....
hope that you really can treat me as your good friend.....
as i do treat you so....

when you are gone

finally..today..
you are leaving.....
really hate this kinda of feeling...
hate seperation....
think last time was my best sis depart to sabah...
tears drop when saw her check in ...
its been quite a long time didnt going back at 7pm...
today.....
walking back home alone....
felt lonely..
found that i'm so selfish..
you were being alone all the time ....
tears dropping...
becoz too miss you...
miss your laugh, miss your grumble...
miss the time hanging out with you...
NTUC, MOS, Vivo, Tiong Bahru, Bugis, KTV, Queensway, Annchorpoint, Jurong Point.....
miss the time preparing breakfast with you..
miss the time cooking lunch with you...
miss the time suft net together with you...
miss the time having breakfast, lunch, dinner with you...
miss the time drinking and spreadout things on one's mind....
miss the time sharing happiness and sadness together...
miss the time together with you....
thanks for taking care of me all the while...
thanks for forgiving my hot temper...
million of thanks....
my dearest and best frenz.....
7 7 7 ...
all the best to you...
our friendship will remain unchange and last forever....